Hey again everyone,
Not sure who if anyone ever sees or reads this, but it's becoming some what of a personal journal, I think. Damn have things changed in my life lately. I can't exactly remember what the last post on here said, at all pretty much, but I've been trying to heal in more ways than I care to admit lately.
The relationship I was in for over 3, almost 4 and engaged for all, but a year of that time has ended. I've had a few random odd and end health issues before and since that point as well. Had the Gallbladder has been pulled and dealt with some complications from that. Quit a job that I hated for one I thought I'd enjoy only for that to go no where rather quickly. Needless to say, there was a very dark time involved for me. I was a wreck in more ways than one.
Since then, however, I've picked up all the pieces, shoved them in a bag, trashed the crappy parts and started to piece my life back together. I'm writing again, along with reading (though for the first time in years I haven't read any real Harry Potter fan fiction in months, which is highly odd for me) new things, and trying to figure out new plans for my life.
The plans for my life now as far as I can control of course, are in the process of being set. I'm likely to be going back at the undergraduate level and completing the last few classes I need to get my Teaching License in High School History/Government. Teaching is something I've always wanted to do at some point and love to do as well, from the different things I've taught people in the past from dealing with Computers, to different Political and History topics and how to do other odds and ends.
In other aspects, I've come to realize that while I may wish things with my now ex were different and some part of me would like to be close friends again some day, for now I need to step back and be me. I need to take some wild chances that I'd never have considered before and see what happens. Moving on in a sense is extremely hard, but I know it will be worth it in the end. Who knows, things may work out for the best this way in ways I never imagined before or so I hope.
Alright though, I'll put more up later, but for now, it's time to watch some UCLA Bruins Football and get some sleep. Night all and hope things are well with you.
Josh
